Friday, July 31, 2009


"someone should have told her that pretty isn't a job"

Went out with Hazim, A. Lane, Mags, Haikal and Gaia last weekend. (Ya Allah. Last weekend ke lah tu babe??) We had a couple shisha's and tried smoking a cigar. The cigar tasted gross, don't know why Hazim chose to but the disgusting flavoured one.That was a good night, I can't wait for another night like that. Then the next day we(minus Gaia and Hazim) went to watch Half-Blood Prince with a couple other people. I wanna see A.Lane again, but since he's leaving toms, I don't think I'll be seeing him again anytime soon. And that about wraps up last weekend, although I feel like I've left out a lot of stuff.

This past week, my dad had a surgery. The doctor's cut him open in three different places. The surgery lasted for about 5 hours and that left me plenty of time to study math and add. math in the hospital's waiting room. Dad's now staying over at Rynna's for a while. This past week was also our July Tests... pretty shameful for me to admit that I think I did badly. fuck I need to study. Found out that trials are in less than a month.

This past week jugak, I saw Land of Lost with them boys. It was pretty funneh but won't be seeing it again and again. i also saw OrangeJuice's 'Macho' walk... that was a hilarious sight.

I'm pretty sure I left out A LOT of stuff. But I just can't figure out what.

Damn. Will update when I remember what is it that I need to let out.

PS:Pictures next time.

"I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do, about you now"

Thursday, July 23, 2009

there's one more who knows,

"You come along because I love your face"

so she, well they left last night. not used to not living 2 seconds away from them. she's practically the only person that has been there for me the whole way.... what if we lose our bond? (now i'm being paranoid) they're new apartment's nice though. it overlooks the pool where V lives. can't wait to swim there. x) i have rocking sisters, and yes, that's means you too Juju.

what else? i reaaaaaaaaally want to go to MTV's World Stage this august. Me and Ra are trying to get tickets. i (we) can't enter the stupid contest on the fucking site because you have to be like 21 and above to enter. balls.

ah, crap. BC's here, gottago.

"And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win"

Sunday, July 19, 2009

oh hey dannyk,


"When you have come to the edge of all light that you knowAnd are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen:There will be something solid to stand on or You will be taught to fly. "
Patrick Overton
"I find it ironic how on December 21st, 2012 the Earth will pass thru the center of our galaxy causing our magnetic fields to flip, quite possibly flipping the earth on it’s axis. I don’t think it’s anything to be alarmed about. It only happens every 30,000 years. Then again, it’s never happened with 7 billion people standing on it."
Jason Mraz
I had a couple bites of durian today. Fucking tempting like mad. Gah, menyesal menyesal. For those of you yang tak tau... I'm allergic (?) to durians. Makan a couple bites, sekarang dah migrain macam tak ingat dunia. . . . . aihh. Stupid fruit.

I loiiiiike A. Lane. Takde lah comel ke apa... but perangai dia comel. Hahhaa, tak jugak lah. Nothing special pun about him, but, to quote Maggy "nothing to dislike" jugak. I hope I get to see him soon, with Hazim, cousin Mags. Maybe this weekend Mags? with canabis? Wheeeeeee~ Or not with Canabis, asalkan dorg ada. (:

And here's something I find funny;

Assistant by Jason Mraz.

I also had some thoughts to share, but looks like I lost it. :\

Oh well, toodles.

Saturday, July 18, 2009 a man alive if he can't be killed?

"I make mistakes like the next man. In fact, being — forgive me — rather cleverer than most men, my mistakes tend to be correspondingly huger." - Albus Dumbledore

Starters , oh shit. Teoh Beng Hock.


On a brighter note, Harry Potter. :D Went to watch it with Mags. It's like sumpah fucking awesome macam apa je. i don't think I can describe the amazingness of the movie in words. They captured nearly everything perfectly and a lot of the scenes were EXACTLY like how I imagined it. Although I was sitting next to idiots who didn't fucking know who Severus was, it didn't keep me from going completely NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA over the movie. I love Harry Potter. :DDDDD Kena tengok lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

Everyone in the movie looked reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaally good, especially Draco... wait, Harry... No, Ron. Alah, semua pun comel semacam je. Even Hermione pun lawaaaaaaaaaaaaa lah teramat sangat. I salute the casting crew because they picked a good Narcissa and Fenrir. I was very the jakun masa scene Dumbledore conjured the fire to save Harry from the Inferi because that was nearly exactly the same as the cover for the Half Blood Prince book. Me and Mags got so excited watching we were going crazy squeezing each others hands. Mags even cut my pinky open with her nail, thanks. The hardest thing to do while watching was trying to keep quiet........ I wanted to scream and jump and pull my hair out (well, no I don't) and go crazy.... but, no I kept quiet and bit my hands.

Freakin adorable I tell you.

Hello yummy.

I couldn't find a good picture of her from the movie, so ni from the premiere. Lawa en?

So I couldn't find a good picture of Dumbledore.... but, he's in our hearts so takpe. Hahaha. I'm such a nerd.

Insyaallah I'm watching it again tonight... if everything goes well. :DDDDDD

Cannot wait for Deathly Hallows Part One and Two. I don't know why but I miss Kreacher, maybe because of his role bila dia try nak selamatkan Regulus and later tolong Harry, I miss Doby, I can't wait for the three of them to flee, I can't wait for the final battle, I can't wait to watch the part where Harry 'dies' and meets Dumbledore again at the train station (dia jumpa kat 9 3/4 ke?), I am excited to see Colin Creevey and Aberforth. I also am anticipating the deaths of the loved ones. Let the final battle commence.

"I know I will be dead long before you read this but I want you to know that it was I who discovered your secret. I have stolen the real Horcrux and intend to destroy it as soon as I can. I face death in the hope that when you meet your match, you will be mortal once more" — R.A.B.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

rabies. babies. scabies?

"if I wake in the morning, I only need two more miracles to be a saint"

I absolutely love Oh Glory. I can't wait for New *something*... heh, tak ingat the title of the first single of p!atd's new

album. I have plenty to say, but not here. So i'm just gonna waste my time doing this.

I'm addicted to ______. I think I _______ _______. Maybe I'll never admit it but, I do love _________. I wish I had some ________ with me now. Do you think I'll ever ______ ________? I wish to _______ in ________. I'm addicted to the way I feel when I think of you. I like _________. I wish I had ________ and more _________. I will be more ________ by the ______ of the _______. I'm the stupidest one among all of you. I suck at ______. I love ________. I'll ________ you _________. Drinking beers, shooting ________.

Just some random shit I'd love to tell people but I won't . :*

I like one of the postsecrets this week. pegi lah tengok, and guess which one.

P.S. Mags, I hope the paper I gave you would help. Because both the prayers has helped me plenty. (:

"snorting cocaine, and drinking your pain"

Friday, July 10, 2009


Fuck people IT IS JUST HIGH SCHOOL PROM!!! Declare war lah, apa lah. fucking lunatic lah you people. Apa gila tiba-tiba semua orang semangat nak buat fucking prom nih? The only reason I'm still in the committe that I'm in is because my sister signed the fucking M.O.A... If the hotel comes after my family because of your fucking debts, I will fucking chase you and squeeze the fucking money out of you, you loser, fuck of an excuse for a person.


Pardon me, I was very angry. I don't really mean the mean things I said.. well, maybe a little. But I did mean it when I say that I'll chase after you if the hotel comes chasing after my sister... That is, if my sister is still the guarantor. I never know anything. It's called a fucking committee you fucking prick. Fuck.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

northern downpour sends its love,

"Don't you see, I'm the narrator and this is just a prologue"

This post is dedicated solely to Panic(!) At The Disco as well as Ryan Ross and Jon Walker.

It breaks my heart that Ryan and Jon left. It's all so sudden, and when I read their statements on FOE and their website, I just started crying. Gah! At least I've seen them together live. I hope Jon and Ryan will inform the public soon on their new music adventure. And I pray that the remaining Panic members, Brendon Urie and Spencer Smith will release a phenomal 3rd album.

You remind me of a few of my favourite friends, well that all depends on what you qualify as friends // You don't have to worry cause we're still the same band. // You've never been so divine in accepting your defeat and I've never been more scared to be alone. // I know it's mad but if I go to hell come with me or just leave? // I know it's sad that I never gave damn about the weather and it never gave a damn about me. // Oh he's slightly clever to just a certain accent. // Make us it, make us hip, make us scene. // That's when you st-st-stutter something profound to the support on the line, and with the way you've been talking every word gets you a step closer to hell. // I'm the new cancer, never looked better and you can't stand it. // I bet to them you're name is cheap, I bet to them you look like shhh. // Well I'm afraid that I, well that's right well I may have faked it. // What a wonderful caricature of intimacy. // There are no raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses and sleeping with roaches and taking best shades of the sheets and before all the stains and a few more of your least favourite things. // Give us this day our daily dose of faux affliction. // We've got the gunslinger extraordinaire vs a walking contradiction. // Swear to shake it up if you swear to listen, oh we're still so young but desperate for attention. // When I say shotgun you say wedding, shotgun-wedding, shotgun-wedding. // She didn't choose this role, but she'll play it and make it sincere so you cry. //

And those are some of my favourite lines.
In the memory of Spence, Ry, Jon and Bren.

"Things have changed for me, and that's okay I feel the same"

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Give me a shot of Novocaine, I dare you.

" And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her"

I'm liking the Nokia 5800 Xpress Music. NOT the KP500 Cookie. Gosh, I'm such a brat.

Anyway, first thing's first. Stop bothering me! Please stop texting/calling me. Don't go and pretend you accidentally sent those messages. Don't pretend to be one of your friends messing around with your phone. DUDE, I don't give a fuck. Sheeeeeesh. Oh and most definitely don't fucking video call me, like you did. Fucking sicko.

-.- Now my blog looks like one of those cinapek's blogs yang ada banyak-banyak posts of them bitching other people.

Anyways, what was last week? ohm, last week was the last week for a couple of them boys. One had to go back to JB, one had to go back to Perak. Thursday night, I saw Dan, OrangeJuice, The Boy, SmallFeet and Flutterby play tennis. That was funny. They played like monkeys (except Dan and OrangeJuice yang were pretty good).

Saturday, I went to VI Boy's coming home party thing. Dudeeee, tak sangka you drink and weed en? Nice. A huge thanks to BC for making sure I arrived home safe after I was no longer capable of walking on a straight line without falling face first into the ground. (Mags, that's where I got the bruise on my forehead. Heh.) It was a good party, but you shouldn't do another one soon, I have SPM. Tapi, lepas SPM... :D

Sunday, I was woken up by perempuan tu. Pukul SEBELAS PAGI on a SUNDAY mind you. Mags ajak pegi Cheer, so like the rocking friend I am, I pun mandi and head over to her place... with a MASSIVE headache. I have to say Cheer was not my scene at all, I was gloomy (and for some reason wanting to cry) nearly the whole time I was there. But, the cheerleaders that competed were awesome and watching them lifted my mood for a while. I reeeeeeally liked the all-boys cheer squad from Sri Kdu, Stunnerz. They were good, although it is pretty disturbing looking at guys do splits. *shudders* Did I mention, Aida was with us. Minah tu sangat lawak ;D . The Boy drove us home (he came later, later that day), but only after we had Cheese Naan at Restoran Jamek that was situated opposite of mines, across the railroads. Haha. By the way, Blitzerz of BUD4 menang! Itu sekolah lama Mags, so I'm happy for them.. they did really well. ;D

Oh oh , I had a few thoughts before I went to sleep last night...

-I never, NEVER want to be like my parents (maybe sikit takpe lah)

-I WILL do outstandingly well for SPM (I promise myself)

-I will try to remember God more

And then I started feeling nostalgic, so I flipped open my old photo album, and realised a couple things:

I can never be more grateful for you being such a huge influence in my life. You taught me so many things, led me to feel emotions I never knew existed and most importantly, you willingly loved me when I was at the worst physical and moral phase of my life. You might never know, realise or given a rat's ass about this but I'm thankful of how it all turned out, I truly am. Thank you for everything. I'll always love you, somewhat. (: (Ex, jangan perasan it's about you ye?)

And then there's Mags, dude, I love you. Though most of the time sekarang I'm always holding back tears because sometimes I cannot believe that one person can be so insensitive and most of the time jugak I rasa macam nak punch you in the face, so that you know that you cannot be like that to people, lagi2 I, yang sangat2 sensitive. Jangan la macam tu babe, what's wrong with being nice kan? Please don't drive me mad, don't drive me away. There is only so much I can take. But for now, I still love you though. :)

Actually the one on Mags is not a realisation, but I do hope she realises that she should treat other people better (realise & act on it ye kawan?). Maybe it's a lot to ask for knowing her, but babe, if people, namely me, can put up with your shit, you could at least be a little considerate eh? Jangan risau, me loves you.
Sorry for ranting on people.

"The angels just cut out her tongue"

Friday, July 3, 2009

I'll make you catatonic,

"Just so you know, I can make your heart slow."

There you go flutterby, hot sangat la kan? x)

Heard Brendon's version of 'The Good Life'.. Wow. Nak dengar, click the link kat bawah ni.

Damn, I lost what I wanted to say. Nevermind then.


"If you say this makes you happy then I'm not the only one lying"