Friday, March 25, 2011

Time to get serious.

For the holidays, I thought I was gonna immediately work but I guess God works in mysterious ways because BALIK BALIK JE TERUS TAK SIHAT. Haha. Enjoy sangat balik rumah sampai terus sakit. I think my body is in too much shock because I'm suddenly HAPPY. You guys should understand that Merbok is a very depressing place.

Anyhow, when I say God works in mysterious ways tu sebab as I was lying on my bed, coughing my throat out, daddy came in my room with news. He got me a freelance writing job for this company (I'm not allowed to say their name for reasons to be mentioned in a bit) writing random stuff on whatever topic they decide to give me. Here's why I can't tell y'all the name of the company I'm currently writing for....

You know how when you're in college/university you have to write all these long essays and thesis? Don't you wish you can pay for someone awesome to write the paper for you instead? Yeah, this is what this company does. Basically people send in topics of their homeworks, pay like less than 50 bucks and people like me, do it for them.

I know it sounds like a shitty job kind of, but really, it's quite awesome because...... If I finish 20 pages or more (around 225 words per page) in one day for 5 days a week, the company will pay me RM 1,500 IN CASH... well at least that's what it accumulates to at the end of the month. Of course I'm not doing THAT much. As if I have so much free time la kan? Haha. I average about 15 pages per day, almost 5 days a week so I get a little less than 1.5k but added to my monthly allowance, is more than enough (: Best part is that I work in the comfort of my own home, dressed in my boxers and baju tido and I'm given 24 hours to write down crap. That's it. Simple kan? It really is a very nice part time work. So thank you daddy (:

So... while I was working on my essay just a few hours ago... I took the time to surf the internet and stumbled upon scholarship applications. I have decided that, if I choose to continue with my law degree... I would like to apply for the BNM Scholarship. The requirements sound simple enough. Under the age of 25, minimum CGPA 3.5 (which was what I was aiming for anyway), passed SPM with credits for BM and English subjects, have CONFIRMED will have a place in a recognised local or private university; which is awesome because I am under the UiTM Pre-Law programme which means that I will DEFINITELY have a place in UiTM, our beloved local Uni and applicant must have good command of the English language for both written and oral. Another reason why I would choose to apply for this scholarship is because they not only offer scholarship for the law program, they also offer this same scholarship for students who are interested in pursuing with Shariah Law which is what I plan to continue studying! How great is that?! :D

Well, that's that. Off to continue my work. Heh. Toodles.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Brand New Start,

[March 6th, 2011]

It’s 3am and I’m flying high like a bird. Everyone told me that drinking is a no-no when I have finals in less than a week’s time but no one said anything about weed coming from the lovely mother earth… So please, bear with my future typos and grammatical errors, I am not in the right state to be typing away.

In the last couple days that I’ve been home, I learned that I am on the brink of unveiling a brand new start to my life. Re-setting my emotional, spiritual and physical being for the sake of my future self revolution. I learned that letting go is the best thing to do, learning from past mistakes and learning from past accomplishments. Take the things I’ve learned in my past experiences and acknowledge the beauty of life by watching movies of my best memories and dreams of my future. I am not afraid of a lot of things but one thing I am most afraid of is the future. I wonder what the future has in store for me, career-wise, relationship-wise and on the whole, me.

I guess losing you of all people wasn’t part of what I planned for a couple years ago, but that happened and I learned from that. I learned a lot, and grew into a different person… Maybe not necessarily for the better but I grew. I used to miss you every damn day but now I don’t know if I still have the ability to care anymore. I hope you do well in life. All the best for you.

And as for you bestfriend, I love you and will always love you. Thank you for being there for me when I thought all was lost. Thank you for being there for me, giving me the warmest hugs and wiping away my tears when I needed a friend the most. I cannot thank you enough. What we have here, it’s special, it’s different, and it’s nothing like I’ve ever known or even heard of before. It’s so much easier to hate when you have reason to…. You never hurt me; I can’t bring myself to get over our memories because you never hurt me. Not even once. I keep telling myself it’s not the right time but then again, I might be telling myself the same thing for the next few years. But what the hell, you’re still here for me aren’t you? You’re there and you are always gonna have my back no matter what. Right now, aside from family, I trust you most. And you deserve to be trusted the way I trust you. I’m here for you. There are certain people in life that you know are meant to stay be it as lovers, friends or just good company and you are definitely one of those people. I love you, always.

The boy with one of the biggest hearts and one of the bestest of best friends I could ever ask for, please never leave my side the same way I’ll never leave yours. Aiman Danial, whatever it is that you need; I pray I am. I love you bestfriend. Thank you for everything.