Sunday, October 18, 2009

In all my spite, just turn it off.

"You came much closer than they had before. You never stop needing and it's good for nothing."

Caught up with si kering, yes YOU *points finger* the one yang pegi baca my blog depan I -.- Pegi la buat twitter! Boleh gedik gedik. xD Anyways, keesokannya was Addin's open house, caught up with The Herry. :D Anyways, the food was good but the sausages were SO superfuckingdelicious sampai everyone berebut macam anjing liar dapat daging -.- After that went for jamaican shisha, moroccan tea and pineapple barbican. Left early to go geli geli. lol, that rhymes. xD And then today pulak was ou with my fave sibs, for a movie. And then I saw that certain budak skate/small feet :D Terima kasih boyfriend( xD ) kerana membawa that certain small feet-ed(?) boy to come see me, since his arm is still healing.

Annnyways, we saw Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs... in 3D! Her treat. Thanks a bunch. Love you. (: The movie's pretty good, especially if you ada younger sibs, it's a great movie to watch together.


Moving on.... I always have some philosophical shit all drafted up in my head when I'm out but then bila dah balik and kat depan laptop, POOF, hilang. Memang nice sangat sangat. So instead of philosophising I'm gonna tell you about the musang thingy (well, orang panggil musang, but it doesn't look anything like the fox) yang I saw when we went to Andalus. :/ I was walking to the car and I heard bunyi macam a kitten in pain, it was fucking seram untill a second later when I saw that it was the musang thingy on the electric wires. Kan those things suka jalan on the electric wires so I went and sambung balik jalan to the car. Had to wait for that boy to keluarkan kereta from the parking because I taknak pijak the damp grass in my kebaya... so I pun tengok la the musang thingy thinking 'Why isn't it moving?' After closer inspection, tengok tengok it's head is fucking stuck between the intertwining electrical wires. D': That's why it was crying or screeching because it was asking for help. ): Musang thingy tu wasn't electrocuted, but STILL.... nanti dia tercekik macam mana?? But then there was nothing I... we, could do to help so I tahan my guilt and went into the car. :/ Balik rumah went to sleep and got nightmares of the musang thingy asking me 'WHY DIDN'T YOU HELP ME?!'. Babi seram. Okay, so now you're probably thinking, 'Dude, give me back the 3 minutes of my life I just wasted reading about some musang thingy.' x) Well, too bad. I am not even sorry I'm telling about the musang thingy because the guilt is eating me up.

I guess, that's about it? Oh lupa nak mention bestfriend's open house that happened last week. So itu je la kot. Nothing big, tak ada apa yang eventful sangat since the SPM is eerily getting sooner and sooner everytime I tengok the calendar (well, duh la kan. But what I mean is, tiba2 dah tinggal sebulan) so duduk rumah and jadi budak baik. Tunggu la lepas SPM nanti *cue evil laugh* but for now, I have an add math book waiting in the room with my name plastered all over it.

Until next time lovely/ies. You know i love you. Yes, you. (:


"I'll beg you, beg you. But it's all the same to me" )':

"The truth never set me free..."

"I don't know what to do with these feelings" -Postsecret French.

"I can't tell you, so everyday I tell the water, the earth, the grass, the sun and the clouds that I love you" -Postsecret Dutch

This one's from Postsecret's Sunday Secrets.

"...So I did it myself."

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

The All-American Rejects *NEW* I Wanna Music Video.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

15 minutes.

Squeezing in a post because I refuse to tweet. Supposed to be at nauwar's hourssss ago. No one is home... -.- dah bagitau suruh hantar still keluar jugak pagi2. Bagus lah tu. I have to find my own means of transport la now. Eeee, tak sukanya.

Oh oh, btw, I saw someone who looks exactly like someone I know, tengok website tu, ada video kat sebelah kanan... cuba teka yang mana satu I think I kenal.

Be back later w updates. Love.

Sunday, October 4, 2009


Sepatutnya di spend dengan tido sepanjang hari... instead i slept for an hour and then terus buat banyak keje. dah balik pun it's not like I had a good rest, change clothes and went to Reen's. First thing's first: Reen wants to know where the mulut becok Ryan is. xD So you better ada bila Rynna ajak benda makan makan tu nanti. Anyways, it was my brother's wedding today, currently I don't have my hands on pictures, so I hope I'll get back to that much later in the week. I ate a lot, my feet hurt, malas nak remove the excessive eye make up I have on, and I am now super tired. I didn't know Daniel has ADD, damn depressing I tell you... he kept pulling on my hair. Danish pun macam tak betul sikit. :/ Boy's out with DanDan, watching the freaking Liverpool/Chelsea match (just because you're Chelsea boy, I hope Liverpool wins). Nak smoke, but sleep deprivation is seriously getting to me. It's like I'm stoned while I'm sleepy because I'm too tired. : Speaking of, boy went and drove while he was stoned from Shah Alam to Damansara. Respect laaa. ;D Haha. I didn't realise I was membatu-ing until I was in the car. Hahaha, that was funny, I thought my arms fell off. xD

Eyh boy jom grass lagi? Same place? I like you when you're up high. xD Verrrry, _____. HAHAHAHA.

On another note, don't leave me in the morning when you wake up. now more than ever, i need a companion, a friend to help me wrap this journey up and start a new one. I love you, yeah, YOU. and you (yang perasan tapi takut bukan untuk you tu. hahah).

"Up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness. Cause none of it was worth the risk but you are the only exception."

Thursday, October 1, 2009

You are the only exception,

I want someone to sing this to. I'm missing something, but I don't know what. Been laughing my tits off the last couple of days, the sadness is catching up to me. I'm so sad, not the good kind. Not melancholic, no. It's the really bad kind of sadness. Please pardon my poor vocab and shiznit english, I'm too sad to think. As high school and teenager shit this may sound, I feel so empty, so vacant. Nyeh, shouldn't bore you with my pointless rant. This is my current favourite song, from Paramore's new album Brand New Eyes, track number six.

The Only Exception.

When i was younger I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here I know your leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh--- You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And Im on my way to believing.

I miss you, I love you. I wish I knew who you are.