Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Let the flames begin.

I can't let myself regret, such selfishness.

You kill me over and over again, I wish you knew.

I have..

been spamming twitter too much that I feel like I should just blog. Complaining about things actually. I'm getting that starry bag and the black ribbon bag. But I found TWO Versace skinny jeans that I completely fell in love with. Also TWO Guess skinny jeans that I really, really want. Total price for everything: RM 333. I KNOW! CRAZY CHEAP RIGHT??? ALL brand new pulak tuuu and original. Thing is, I just spent a hefty amount of money and like nak spend lagi 300 bucks memang tak laaaaah. So now, I'm just getting those two bags. :( Stupid economy. (babi, now I sound terlebih gedik).

Anywaaaays, it was a good day. I love those people. Tropicana City Mall soon guys? x) Can't wait to see Sherwin on Friday, he's a got a little something something for us. HAHAHAHA.

Oh and fave quote of the day *tee hee x)* "Take good care of my heart because I've left it with you." HAHAH. You know who you are sengal.

Gonna sambung add math now. Toodles.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Everyday we awake,

Feeling so melancholic. Last year of school guys. (: I'm gonna miss you. This one's for all of you. (Meant to post this on the last day of school tapi tak tertahan dah -.-)


Please stand by, we've come so far
These years we survived the ride that turned us inside out
Repeat after me, just scream and shout
It was the best of times,
From broken homes and battle scars to where we are
Graduate Paperchase
We'll get out of this place
Don't turn around
Hit the highway pour some liquor out for this town
Now that's all for us
It's last call drink up
Roll it out, it's over now
We're the castouts with messed up friends and never did fit in
Don't care where it ends, doesn't matter now
Long as we're as one, we'll take the next bus
Destination: setting sun
We'll get out of this place
Don't turn around
Hit the highway pour some liquor out for this town
Now that's all for us
It's last call drink up
This is an open invite for all to attend
Don't ask too many questions now
Don't tell us how it ends, cause we're the ones who wrote the end
Graduate Paperchase
We'll get out of this place
Don't turn around
Hit the highway pour some liquor out for this town
Now that's all for us
It's last call drink up

I'm gonna miss high school. (':

Paper Chase.

This man is my hero. he just had a tumor removed from his knee that morning and by evening he's already prancing on stage with his bestfriends for the support show on the Blink 182 tour. Granted that he was assisted by a large dose of morphine so that he could deliver and that ninja guy helping him around the stage, still, he just had surgery! AAR had to cancel one show though, and I don't get why people are so pissed off. Like, HE HAD A FUCKING TUMOR MAN. Hahaha, I am SUCH a fangirl.

Get well Tyson baby, we're sending you much love. :)

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Shwing, Shwing.

Hats off to you bestfriend..wait, can I still call you my bestfriend? No wait, I'll start over.


Thank you, thank you, thank you. Yeapp, I owe you BIG. I want to keep this short and sweet, so in the words of the almighty All-American Rejects themselves, you can sit beside me when the world comes down. I said it before and I'll say it again; anything you need, anytime, just call me. (:

Friday, September 18, 2009


Title: Say whaaaaat? Anywayyys.

Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin.

No but really, if I ada insulted you or did you wrong or offended you or not meet your bestfriend expectations in any way (er, what? Haha)... I mintak maaf (for things you know or do not know I did), I hope that you forgive me and I can only pray that I won't be making the same mistakes again.

I pray for every single one of you out there in my prayers every night. I hope twins, Aina, nenek, atuk and the rest of them are all doing well wherever they are. Moga moga dicucuri rahmat mereka. (:
Dad, sisters(ye, juju sekali), brother, bestestbestfriend, bestfriends, VIP friend(you know who you are xD), friends,... I love you all. (: Dapat duit raya jimat, jangan makan more than your tummy can take, enjoy your kampung's clean air, and yang baru nak drive balik kampung tu... drive safe. :)

You know I love you. (:

Saturday, September 12, 2009

We don't fight fair.

"I've got to breathe, you can't take that from me"

I still can't decide if Tyson Ritter is hot or not. Yes, I realise the topless picture tu macam geli sikit, but I still rasa he looks hot beneath all the geli. -.- See the whole shoot here.

I heard Here We Go Again (the album not the single) by Demi Lovato is supposed to be really good. Hm, I might go check it out.. I already love, yes love, the song. It's so catchy, although I must say... I don't like Demi Lovato's face. That's uncalled for, haha.

I got stuff to say, but have now lost the mojo to write since I've been reading CynideandHappiness for the past two hours.. haha. x) Off to spend another hour on Cynide and Happiness, then add math babi.... then baru tido. Hopefully before ten lah. Tak nak bangun petang2 sangat.

Morning peeps. :)

"My name is never was, my name's forgotten"

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

what the fuck? hah.


Will get back to that later. xD

Saturday, September 5, 2009

You're just paper.

"I am everything you want,
I am everything you need,
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be,
I said all the right things at exactly the right time,
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why"

Did I say just how much I love Vertical Horizon?

Still need things to get of my chest considering the numbing absence of nearly everyone I know/need lately. Gah, the rain makes me feel so mellow. It makes me want to cry and sit alone on a swing under the rain, so that when I'm all drenched and freezing I know that I'm real, that I'm still alive.

I need sleep, so bad. My sleeping schedule is all haywire, the meds make me woozy all the time. I'm tired like about 90% of the day, but fuck if I sleep some more. I don't know where I find the time to laze off and sleep all day and still go online when I've spent most of my time studying. I'm seriously, a supergirl.

If there was any way I could rant on and on here just to let things out, I would have. Too bad everyone who comes here knows who I am.

I should be off, seeing that typing on blogger is not helping me feel better at all. No lyrics today, I'm just leaving you with this...


PS: Do you know what the absence has turned me into?

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

I just won't make sense.

"hook me up a new revolution because this one is a lie"

Favourite quote of the day "Let's play Romeo and Juliet and fall in love just to die".

Did I tell you how much I love Teenagers by Hayley Williams? It's on the Jennifer's Body soundtrack... Actually, now that I think about it, I love all the songs on the soundtrack. It's all very high school, but I am in high school so it's appropos. xD

Why is it that I have a habit of going online at two in the morning? It's so annoying knowing that I have time to study accounts tommorow that I somehow refuse to study tonight. Ngeh. I don't really have anyhting to write.. I just want to. How about I talk about Agama Paper 1 tadi? Nahh, tak nak la. You people know how hard it was.

A friend e-mailed me this today after three years of silence. I just had to share it with you, her writing is just divine.

"you left the broken ones behind without glue or tape to fix ourselves, i found your photographs today and what was left of my unbroken tangle tore itself into pieces. there are photos of you smiling and photos where your hair is long and blowing back from your face and photos where you are being kissed and held and there is one where you are floating in a pool, defying gravity and burning like a peony in the sunlight.

there's a photo of you having a seizure and the whites of your eyes are like the bone china i haven't ever eaten off of, i flipped the picture over but it seared me like a brand, seared me like a scar. hundreds of photographs are on the counter, ones in frames and ones that have been torn at the edges like you are trying to escape your destiny.

you are haunted you are haunting you are hunted. you left her bruised and raw enough to drip blood on the floor, you left her behind pulled curtains and i can't seem to unfasten the latch on her windows for fear she will jump.

you left him angry, i wear his hands around my neck instead of a collar to remind us that i am no one's animal, i am no one's property but he keeps trying to contain me all the same. you left me longing for someone i can't quite seem to find, because you are elusive, long hair in the wind, feet buried in sand, that half smile, those eyes, seared bone white and eggshell broken to the back of my eyelids, a reminder that you shouldn't twist out of fate like cigarette smoke because everyone ends up with burnt fingers anyway."

Fuck en? :)

So I just wasted an hour online, doing nothing... Like whoah, I need sleep. Night people. (:

"Just take off your wings, they could never get you quite as high as I did. And you know it."