But the time is right and it only flies

"To my favourite liar, to my favourite scar. Let's play this game called 'when you catch fire', I wouldn't piss to put you out."

I have a lot to say so I promise to make it all as brief as possible.

Firstly, Maisarah Khairi, aku sangat terharu post kau ada nama aku, sayang kau jugak la (: And if I'm being honest, rindu sebenarnya kat Merbok and PL 1E. Tapi perasaan nak pergi balik tu currently tak ada because I am deathly afraid of the finals sampai tak lena nak tidur. I was trying to study MTC 012 this morning, and maaaaaaaaan that was painful. I literally wanted to scream. Don't get me wrong, I love law, but we haven't had a long holiday like this sampai my brain just refuses to digest anything related to my subjects.

Secondly, my holidays' been great so far except for that bitch who keeps popping into my life like nobody's beeswax. Like my god, please just stop making life so difficult for us. Do you know how much effort it takes for me to not be rude to you? You're lucky I dah banyak buat dosa, tak teringin aku nak add 'anak derhaka' to my list of sins.

Also, I saw some of the bestfriends for buka yesterday, too b ad some people couldn't make it. Buka at The Gardens, ate some more at A&W, they tapau-ed waffles from Waffle World (a&w ran out of waffles -.-) then some of us went off to mamak to pass the time. Oh, juga met Amir and Razlan for sahur. Sumpah, I rindu rindu rindu gila kat Razlan. Imagine, dah lama sangat tak jumpa dia... We got lost looking for his place. HAHA. Then today, after some drama rama, went to Haris's (calling him Haris here so that no one gets him confused w Honeyboo), then culik dia and went off to Rasta for supper. I had a nice time. Love you all (:

Next on my agenda, Rakan Rakan Setiawangsa. Y'all have some thing I want (Yes, I'm talking about YOU Syam) Woot Woot. >:D and I also need to spend more time with Sayang. I'm home and yet I've only seen you like berapa kali je kan Yang? Miss you lots Honeyboo.

Since gambar cuti belum boleh dicuri because macam biasa la Inaz and Amar lambat upload, I'm leaving with random photos of Merbok (:

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Last, but definitely not least. Us. Mimi (in her tudung for the Ramadhan month (: ), Q and E. Sayang korang (:

P.S. : Huge thanks to Ira for driving everyone home the past couple of days.

P.P.S. : I love you banyak banyak HoneyBoo.

"Save what you got, keep it safe don't ever stop. It's nothing more, it's nothing less, it's all we got, it's happiness"

Just because.

“I won’t worry my life away. You can turn off the sun, but I’m still gonna shine”

So did I tell you guys I rode in an ambulance at 1130 at night to go to the hospital while I was at college? Yeah, it was by far one of the coolest (and most torturous) experiences that I have ever had to go through since I started studying here. I wouldn’t want to bore you (or possibly disgust you) with the tale of why the emergency hotline was called on my behalf that night. But rest assured; I am now on my way back to full recovery. Although, I do need to say this, the painkillers I was prescribed that night, don’t help. Like, seriously… I’ve gotten stronger medications before, and let me say this, eating those pills are just like popping disgusting tasting, powdery candy compared to the pills I’ve had to take before.

Moving on, have I introduced you guys to Mimi, E and Cekodok? (yes, cekodok is the orange cat, held lovingly by the seemingly sane; Mimi) This couple of people is so awesome, I can’t think of a more awesomer word than ‘awesome’ to describe the awesomeness that they are. Mimi’s the really weird, awkward, totally recluse but crazy cool and outgoing once you get to know her type of girl whilst E is just really loud, and sort of rude, but is completely adorable (plus she has the most obnoxiously cute laugh in the world, it is SO cute) and likeable you just can’t help but cuddle up and make weird noises with her like wo’ wo’ wo’ or shouuu’! (x I think combining the three of us together is so lethal because when we’re in the mood, it can take some time to adjust to how we are, but it’s all good.. We have fun :D

It’s almost the end of the semester and after all the getting used to, it has come to my realization that I actually enjoy being here. I mean; the comfort you find here in the people and the place itself is just beyond what I have ever had the opportunity to experience before. I literally have shed blood, gallons of sweat and plenty of tears here that it would tug on my heartstrings to leave this place next year. Anyhow, this last couple of weeks before the raya holidays has been keeping me busy, so busy that I had this entry typed out on Microsoft word so that when I am free enough I can just copy paste it onto my blogger. We (that is to say, the part one pre-lawrians) are so effing busy with all the bel tests, the csc’s final project (which I haven’t started on!) that incidentally carries 20% of my overall marks and has to be presented and sent by next Thursday and both the 012 and 016 law subjects that I feel like it’s about time my brain and my body gave up… But here I am, still standing, holding my “Law, Morality, Justice, Freedom and Equality” book. Hahah.

For the best friends who are wondering, YES, we’re both fine. After all we’ve been through to get to where we are; it isn’t going to be as easy as that to go back one step. But, I still love you guys for everything y’all did that week to cheer me up. Thanks Dian honey and Aiman… I’ll love both of you forever. (: And of course you Sayang, love you la dude ;D

“Yes there’s love if you want it, don’t sound like no sonnet, my lord”

I'm a little drunk, and I need you now

"Drinking 'cause you're looking so good in your Starbucks cup"



Ahoy there matey. (: I haven't been on blogger since forever. Last I wrote here was when I just got to Kedah but now I'm in the middle of my mid sem break and it has been wonderful so far. *grins* But before I update on anything, I just gotta say one thing.. For those haters out there, yeah, you guys, who are sitting there still pathetically reading my blog denying the fact that you are oh-so-obsessed with me please just either shut the fuck up (because if you keep posting hate comments on my blog it just proves that I'm right, that you ARE obsessed with me) OR have the decency to not comment as 'anonymous'; because at least that would mean you still have some form of pride in you. Oh and please, use proper english please... I don't understand idiot language. Thank you very much. (Although, the blog was commented about a month ago so I might already be friends w the 'used to be' haters by now)



Anyhoo, Kedah's actually not that bad if you overlook the fact that it can get really hot there. It also helps that I have good friends I can count on around, but the place itself pun memang isn't that bad. Studying law isn't as easy as people say it was gonna be, like seriously, the things I have to learn are so bloody hard and disturbingly new to me that I cannot even fathom how people manage to memorise these things and practice them, enough to make a living out of it. Assignments for the mid sem break are a pain in the ass, but I think I'll manage to balance between my studies and seeing my lovelies.



Saw the bestfriend for lunch, dinner and also some lovely Wondermilking hari tu. I mean, who can resist free cupcakes and weird drinks that you can only get at Wondermilk right? THANKS AUNTY JAJA! :D We were supposed to be studying economics and law but instead we ended up yapping away, it didn't help that Aunty Jaja served us yummy cookies while we were happily talking about colouring and stuff. Tee heee~



Also saw some of my favourite boys last night.. Didn't expect the night to turn out the way it did though it was still fucking fantastic. Damn I ♥ those boys. Didn't know you guys felt that way about that certain girl, couldn't believe you've been through that much pain, didn't realise how fucking loaded that certain boy is, don't really wanna know about that boy's preferences and stuff. Too bad Man couldn't be there 'cause, boo hoo, he's stuck in Segamat studying. Thanks for coming all the way here guys, and thanks for that great night. For the record, I did miss you Syam.. Just didn't wanna tell you :P Hahahahah.



Spent my day trying to finish my assignments to no avail.. Dah la I left some of my homework in Kedah, so that was smart of me. -.- Lunching with Creeper toms. Untill then. Toodles.



x

(credits to Aunty Jaja (: )

"My beating heart belongs to you, I walked for miles 'till I found you"

UITM di hati ku.

Woke up at one today realising that I have absolutely nothing to do. Done all my CSC homework, gone through the first chapter of Federal Constitution, and had all my clothes washed, dried and ironed. It has been difficult getting used to the fact that my weeks all start on Sunday and that I am now in a jungle in the middle of a city in fucking Sungai Petani, Merbok, Kedah. I'm not gonna lie, the view here is exceptionally breathtaking and the mornings here are fucking spectacular. But the nights here are still, quiet and dead. I have only been here for about 6 days and already I find myself bored out of my fucking mind. I will never in my life take PJ for granted ever again. I wanna kiss the walls and floors of OU once I get home (hopefully next week).

Here, the search for KL/Selangor people has been very, very difficult. But I managed to find a few that I can actually sit down and have an actual conversation with. There's Puteri, E for short, who comes from Ampang. There's Mimi from Cheras and Man from Bangi. People here don't really like us because we, well, actually I don't know why they don't like us.. But whatever la, aku datang sini nak belajar.

Anyhoo, they have starbucks here in Kedah, which is a definite plus. And eventhough the KL people are rare, they are here and we do have fun, sort of. I have been terribly homesick, undeniably crying in the semi-darkness when my roomie is asleep. I can't believe I missed Aiman's birthday thingy, I can't believe I wasn't there when Dian found out she got the scholarship, I can't believe I'm not there for the world cup with sayang and most importantly Ic can't believe I am not there to savour the two weeks yang my parents tak ada. FUCK. But like everyone keeps saying to me, and me to myself, everything happens for a reason and I will damn well make it through this year and a half alive and get my awesome CGPA and go on to become a succesful, rich person.

But, before I become that succesful person.. God please la help me get through this. MY HEART IS HOMESICK FOR YOU AIMAN DANIAL D': YOU OWE ME A LONG HUGGGGGGG and a wet, wet, WET kiss. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. I love you, wait for me okay? You better behave yourself baby. I sayang you. (: BTW, memang tak lah UITM di hati ku. -.-

Painting Flowers.

Strange maze, what is this place? I hear voices over my shoulders. Nothings making sense at all. Wonder, why do we race? And every day were running in circles. Such a funny way to fall. Try to open up my eyes Im hopin for the chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. Woah

Throw my cards, give you my heart. Wish we could start all over. Nothing's making sense at all. Try to open up my eyes, Im hopin for a chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. I am still painting flowers for you.


I heard everything you said. I dont wanna lose my head.


When I wake up The dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you.

I ♥ you.

Weeks go by like days..

True to the title... these past few weeks have been passing me by like days. I've had a bunch of days when I felt "wasn't it just yesterday that I did ____" but in reality it was like a few weeks ago. Anyways, this past few weeks have been nothing short of great... What with Sayang being like the ultimate boyfriend ever and my friends being all nice to me. Life's been great.



Today Akmal, Man and Fooza came to visit me at work. :D I loveeeeeee. They drove all the way from Setiawangsa just to surprise me okay. We had a good talk, tapi, seriously tak puas. So I hope I'm gonna be seeing them soon. But Man's going back to Segamat on wednesday and Fooza's classes at Taylors are starting again next week. Missed Sham, he didn't come.. Was stuck in his short sem. Mehh. So, I pun tak tahu la when's the next time I get to see them.



Then the boyfriend wanted to come with Encik Addin Perosak Tali Guitar Orang. But, he heard that I had friends with me... So tak jadi. I miss you baby. :(



Later pulak, Haziq came with Ya Nadiraaaa. And it was weird, considering I don't think I've ever sat down with Ya and Haziq together. Just us. Had a talk about a bunch of people, then, Ya, who was grounded (HAHAH) had to go home and Haziq had to go be gay and watch a movie berdua duaan with another guy.



OH and Sabrina wore the dress we went to look for together hari tu! My gooooodness her legs are like damn panjaaaaaaaaaang. The short skirt made 'em look even the more panjang. So prettyy. But she tak sesuai la pakai make up :( She looks so much better au naturale. I must keluar and lepak with her one of these days. Then Naz passed his driving test today, so when he gets his new car, I wanna go lepak with him. Bring him go shisha at mentari, suruh bawak Saiful and kawan kawan mereka... Nak sayang? (:



I should be finishing my RSC essay la actually right now.. But I am like damn malas. Why lah. -.- Pretty sure, I've got more important things to tell.. But can't think of any right now. Untill next time. love.

'Ku janjikan aku ada'

"I'm becoming amazed how, you're quite affectionate in public"

It's been very good lately I can't help but feel very afraid that things are going to go wrong, big time, soon. I mean, people just don't get to be this happy and not have to face serious consequences.

Tonight was great, really Sayang, I love you too. You are the greatest (: Pretty glad to spend the majority of the night with you, I mean, just you and me and our hearts beating as one, the night was perfect. (jiwang sangat yang? (x ) Here's tonight's letter to you... And yes, this time you boleh senyum sorang sorang sebab if you're reading this then most likely I tak ada dengan you. Ngeeee~

I am starting to notice how when describing you, describing us, my words tend to sound like I am living in a fairytale. But believe me Sayang, no one else has ever made a fairytale come true for me like you have. I love it, lying in bed, not doing anything, but just lying there, me in your warm embrace, completely immersed in our love for each other.

You have absolutely no idea, how much I wanted to cry and burst out in happiness hearing you say the words I have only imagined a lover would say to me (and yes, you make me just as happy, love). I felt like I could implode and explode at the same time from pure happiness. Trust me when I say, I wish that I could just lie there, in your arms, forever. You might not be able to see my face within these words that I've written, but believe me, I'm smiling like I have never smiled before, my face, completely radiating with joy.

I would love to wake up next to you every morning, love. See you still fast asleep, face all serene, then me going to the kitchen making you your morning coffee, slightly sweeter than mine (because you like your coffee sweet) then eating breakfast in front of the telly. You know honey, it's because of moments like this, I know everything that I have sacrificed getting here, was worth it. Every single tear, and sleepless nights, all insignificant compared to the reward that I get for having the guts to kiss you that night. To make the night all the better, you remembered the date you so casually asked me to be with you, even when I don't (:

My dearest Aiman Danial, yes, I am madly in love with you too. And I almost believed that you do love me more, until I realised that it's impossible for you to love me, more than I love you. Thank you for the song Sayang. I love you, like a lot. Like plenty. And definitely for forever. Lover or not.

I know you don't like to read Sayang, but it means a lot when you read my letters. I love you. Thanks for being the best, thank you for always being there. I guess we really can't fight fate, I'd be more than happy to be spending the remainder of my life with you. You know I need you just as much as you need me (it explains how we stay friends even after everything we have been through kan?). I love you.

Friends who are reading this and regretting they did sebab terlalu sappy and jiwang, blame the boyfriend, he's just too lovely. Hehe.

Untill next time, with much love.

"Aku mau mendampingin dirimu, aku mau cintai kekuranganmu. Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu, apa pun terjadi, kujanjikan aku ada" ♥