But the time is right and it only flies

"To my favourite liar, to my favourite scar. Let's play this game called 'when you catch fire', I wouldn't piss to put you out."

I have a lot to say so I promise to make it all as brief as possible.

Firstly, Maisarah Khairi, aku sangat terharu post kau ada nama aku, sayang kau jugak la (: And if I'm being honest, rindu sebenarnya kat Merbok and PL 1E. Tapi perasaan nak pergi balik tu currently tak ada because I am deathly afraid of the finals sampai tak lena nak tidur. I was trying to study MTC 012 this morning, and maaaaaaaaan that was painful. I literally wanted to scream. Don't get me wrong, I love law, but we haven't had a long holiday like this sampai my brain just refuses to digest anything related to my subjects.

Secondly, my holidays' been great so far except for that bitch who keeps popping into my life like nobody's beeswax. Like my god, please just stop making life so difficult for us. Do you know how much effort it takes for me to not be rude to you? You're lucky I dah banyak buat dosa, tak teringin aku nak add 'anak derhaka' to my list of sins.

Also, I saw some of the bestfriends for buka yesterday, too b ad some people couldn't make it. Buka at The Gardens, ate some more at A&W, they tapau-ed waffles from Waffle World (a&w ran out of waffles -.-) then some of us went off to mamak to pass the time. Oh, juga met Amir and Razlan for sahur. Sumpah, I rindu rindu rindu gila kat Razlan. Imagine, dah lama sangat tak jumpa dia... We got lost looking for his place. HAHA. Then today, after some drama rama, went to Haris's (calling him Haris here so that no one gets him confused w Honeyboo), then culik dia and went off to Rasta for supper. I had a nice time. Love you all (:

Next on my agenda, Rakan Rakan Setiawangsa. Y'all have some thing I want (Yes, I'm talking about YOU Syam) Woot Woot. >:D and I also need to spend more time with Sayang. I'm home and yet I've only seen you like berapa kali je kan Yang? Miss you lots Honeyboo.

Since gambar cuti belum boleh dicuri because macam biasa la Inaz and Amar lambat upload, I'm leaving with random photos of Merbok (:

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Last, but definitely not least. Us. Mimi (in her tudung for the Ramadhan month (: ), Q and E. Sayang korang (:

P.S. : Huge thanks to Ira for driving everyone home the past couple of days.

P.P.S. : I love you banyak banyak HoneyBoo.

"Save what you got, keep it safe don't ever stop. It's nothing more, it's nothing less, it's all we got, it's happiness"

Painting Flowers.

Strange maze, what is this place? I hear voices over my shoulders. Nothings making sense at all. Wonder, why do we race? And every day were running in circles. Such a funny way to fall. Try to open up my eyes Im hopin for the chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. Woah

Throw my cards, give you my heart. Wish we could start all over. Nothing's making sense at all. Try to open up my eyes, Im hopin for a chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. I am still painting flowers for you.


I heard everything you said. I dont wanna lose my head.


When I wake up The dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you.

I ♥ you.

'Ku janjikan aku ada'

"I'm becoming amazed how, you're quite affectionate in public"

It's been very good lately I can't help but feel very afraid that things are going to go wrong, big time, soon. I mean, people just don't get to be this happy and not have to face serious consequences.

Tonight was great, really Sayang, I love you too. You are the greatest (: Pretty glad to spend the majority of the night with you, I mean, just you and me and our hearts beating as one, the night was perfect. (jiwang sangat yang? (x ) Here's tonight's letter to you... And yes, this time you boleh senyum sorang sorang sebab if you're reading this then most likely I tak ada dengan you. Ngeeee~

I am starting to notice how when describing you, describing us, my words tend to sound like I am living in a fairytale. But believe me Sayang, no one else has ever made a fairytale come true for me like you have. I love it, lying in bed, not doing anything, but just lying there, me in your warm embrace, completely immersed in our love for each other.

You have absolutely no idea, how much I wanted to cry and burst out in happiness hearing you say the words I have only imagined a lover would say to me (and yes, you make me just as happy, love). I felt like I could implode and explode at the same time from pure happiness. Trust me when I say, I wish that I could just lie there, in your arms, forever. You might not be able to see my face within these words that I've written, but believe me, I'm smiling like I have never smiled before, my face, completely radiating with joy.

I would love to wake up next to you every morning, love. See you still fast asleep, face all serene, then me going to the kitchen making you your morning coffee, slightly sweeter than mine (because you like your coffee sweet) then eating breakfast in front of the telly. You know honey, it's because of moments like this, I know everything that I have sacrificed getting here, was worth it. Every single tear, and sleepless nights, all insignificant compared to the reward that I get for having the guts to kiss you that night. To make the night all the better, you remembered the date you so casually asked me to be with you, even when I don't (:

My dearest Aiman Danial, yes, I am madly in love with you too. And I almost believed that you do love me more, until I realised that it's impossible for you to love me, more than I love you. Thank you for the song Sayang. I love you, like a lot. Like plenty. And definitely for forever. Lover or not.

I know you don't like to read Sayang, but it means a lot when you read my letters. I love you. Thanks for being the best, thank you for always being there. I guess we really can't fight fate, I'd be more than happy to be spending the remainder of my life with you. You know I need you just as much as you need me (it explains how we stay friends even after everything we have been through kan?). I love you.

Friends who are reading this and regretting they did sebab terlalu sappy and jiwang, blame the boyfriend, he's just too lovely. Hehe.

Untill next time, with much love.

"Aku mau mendampingin dirimu, aku mau cintai kekuranganmu. Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu, apa pun terjadi, kujanjikan aku ada" ♥

Wallflower.

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it



Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it.



Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year that Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do



And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen.

If you don't know where this is from, you might as well get a razor blade and kill yourself.