UITM di hati ku.

Woke up at one today realising that I have absolutely nothing to do. Done all my CSC homework, gone through the first chapter of Federal Constitution, and had all my clothes washed, dried and ironed. It has been difficult getting used to the fact that my weeks all start on Sunday and that I am now in a jungle in the middle of a city in fucking Sungai Petani, Merbok, Kedah. I'm not gonna lie, the view here is exceptionally breathtaking and the mornings here are fucking spectacular. But the nights here are still, quiet and dead. I have only been here for about 6 days and already I find myself bored out of my fucking mind. I will never in my life take PJ for granted ever again. I wanna kiss the walls and floors of OU once I get home (hopefully next week).

Here, the search for KL/Selangor people has been very, very difficult. But I managed to find a few that I can actually sit down and have an actual conversation with. There's Puteri, E for short, who comes from Ampang. There's Mimi from Cheras and Man from Bangi. People here don't really like us because we, well, actually I don't know why they don't like us.. But whatever la, aku datang sini nak belajar.

Anyhoo, they have starbucks here in Kedah, which is a definite plus. And eventhough the KL people are rare, they are here and we do have fun, sort of. I have been terribly homesick, undeniably crying in the semi-darkness when my roomie is asleep. I can't believe I missed Aiman's birthday thingy, I can't believe I wasn't there when Dian found out she got the scholarship, I can't believe I'm not there for the world cup with sayang and most importantly Ic can't believe I am not there to savour the two weeks yang my parents tak ada. FUCK. But like everyone keeps saying to me, and me to myself, everything happens for a reason and I will damn well make it through this year and a half alive and get my awesome CGPA and go on to become a succesful, rich person.

But, before I become that succesful person.. God please la help me get through this. MY HEART IS HOMESICK FOR YOU AIMAN DANIAL D': YOU OWE ME A LONG HUGGGGGGG and a wet, wet, WET kiss. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. I love you, wait for me okay? You better behave yourself baby. I sayang you. (: BTW, memang tak lah UITM di hati ku. -.-

Painting Flowers.

Strange maze, what is this place? I hear voices over my shoulders. Nothings making sense at all. Wonder, why do we race? And every day were running in circles. Such a funny way to fall. Try to open up my eyes Im hopin for the chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. Woah

Throw my cards, give you my heart. Wish we could start all over. Nothing's making sense at all. Try to open up my eyes, Im hopin for a chance to make it alright.

When I wake up The dream isnt done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you. I am still painting flowers for you.


I heard everything you said. I dont wanna lose my head.


When I wake up The dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home. If nothing is true What more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you.

I ♥ you.

'Ku janjikan aku ada'

"I'm becoming amazed how, you're quite affectionate in public"

It's been very good lately I can't help but feel very afraid that things are going to go wrong, big time, soon. I mean, people just don't get to be this happy and not have to face serious consequences.

Tonight was great, really Sayang, I love you too. You are the greatest (: Pretty glad to spend the majority of the night with you, I mean, just you and me and our hearts beating as one, the night was perfect. (jiwang sangat yang? (x ) Here's tonight's letter to you... And yes, this time you boleh senyum sorang sorang sebab if you're reading this then most likely I tak ada dengan you. Ngeeee~

I am starting to notice how when describing you, describing us, my words tend to sound like I am living in a fairytale. But believe me Sayang, no one else has ever made a fairytale come true for me like you have. I love it, lying in bed, not doing anything, but just lying there, me in your warm embrace, completely immersed in our love for each other.

You have absolutely no idea, how much I wanted to cry and burst out in happiness hearing you say the words I have only imagined a lover would say to me (and yes, you make me just as happy, love). I felt like I could implode and explode at the same time from pure happiness. Trust me when I say, I wish that I could just lie there, in your arms, forever. You might not be able to see my face within these words that I've written, but believe me, I'm smiling like I have never smiled before, my face, completely radiating with joy.

I would love to wake up next to you every morning, love. See you still fast asleep, face all serene, then me going to the kitchen making you your morning coffee, slightly sweeter than mine (because you like your coffee sweet) then eating breakfast in front of the telly. You know honey, it's because of moments like this, I know everything that I have sacrificed getting here, was worth it. Every single tear, and sleepless nights, all insignificant compared to the reward that I get for having the guts to kiss you that night. To make the night all the better, you remembered the date you so casually asked me to be with you, even when I don't (:

My dearest Aiman Danial, yes, I am madly in love with you too. And I almost believed that you do love me more, until I realised that it's impossible for you to love me, more than I love you. Thank you for the song Sayang. I love you, like a lot. Like plenty. And definitely for forever. Lover or not.

I know you don't like to read Sayang, but it means a lot when you read my letters. I love you. Thanks for being the best, thank you for always being there. I guess we really can't fight fate, I'd be more than happy to be spending the remainder of my life with you. You know I need you just as much as you need me (it explains how we stay friends even after everything we have been through kan?). I love you.

Friends who are reading this and regretting they did sebab terlalu sappy and jiwang, blame the boyfriend, he's just too lovely. Hehe.

Untill next time, with much love.

"Aku mau mendampingin dirimu, aku mau cintai kekuranganmu. Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu, apa pun terjadi, kujanjikan aku ada" ♥